FAREWELL MY BELOVED AMERICA, MAY WE MEET AGAIN!!

31 August 2007
Over cast Friday (29 Degree Celsius)
Morning @ 1020 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 无所谓 by 蔡健雅
Mood: *Birds & The Bees Fucking*

Finally moved out my apartment on Tuesday, tuang around on Wednesday & Thursday and now, its Friday. That was fast… Yup, my last day in the US of A. Not too bad, birds till sings, people still go around with their business… That’s how life is; People are cruel, The world still move on without you.

I enjoyed the life here, living it up and painting the town red (not), still it has been a place I call my home for these years. I am a little sad moving out of my apartment. I felt a little sad too, upon selling my BMW; both have accompanied me on numerous road trips and unaccounted heartbreaks for so long. In the end, I do miss USA. But as my supreme commander says, eventually it boils down to living your dream. If your dream is to come to US, then you have fulfilled it. Yup, I have still no idea what his philosophy means… Well, my dreams are still murky and still (perhaps) in the making… What Dreams may Come, Bird

Oh well, what more can I say? Welcome home Bird? Hope you fucking enjoy your stay in Singapore. Right…

Farewell my beloved America, So long! May we meet again…

无所谓 by 蔡健雅

爱变成疑问句, 写在彼此心里面
不抱歉不告别, 用沈默划上句点

若逃不过思念, 把泪藏在梦里面
不去想不去猜, 你窗内那个人是谁

如果相爱过程感觉是千真万确
我想我要我喜我悲, 只见你沈默以对
如果那个人弥补你寂寞的空位
我盼我等我爱我恨, 你可以都听不见
无所谓无所谓

COME OVER TO THE DARK SIDE, WE HAVE COOKIES

28 August 2007
Clear Tuesday (25 Degree Celsius)
Early Morning @ 0412 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 梦与现实by 巫启贤
Mood: *Insomnia*

Well, if everything goes smoothly, I think I no need to sleep liao. Woke up at 12 plus, just after 2 hours of sleep, last night slept less than 5 hours and if you include tonight, I think I going to be in for a good one later. Luckily I am on off. Oh well, something to cheer about.

Last morning sends my car for my 30K miles servicing and it cost me US$600. Nice one, When I am about to go home kena this. Still recommend me to change this and that… What are the odds? Ya, fuck the changing, why pay for others to enjoy?

Movers came this morning also, very efficient, with less than 4 hours and a 2 men team, they managed to move the entire 105 boxes away. Fuck, I really got lots of junk.

Then came my insomnia… I didn’t foresee this to happen… After washing up the apartment, clearing all the junks and packing my stuffs, I am actually pretty wasted by nightfall. But alas, sleep does not come easy to me. Might as well lah… Life is tough…

The apartment does look empty when the boxes are gone. For the past 2 months (plus Plus haha), these boxes are part and parcel of my life here, so much so that I have grown quite fondly of them. It is kind of sad seeing them being moved out but I take comfort in knowing that we will once again be united and this time, its forever. It does not sound so disturbing if you are a bird.

This sense of euphoria was going well until my cheebye colleague brought up the issue of insurance and since Cheebye Company doesn’t cover the entire shipment (only insured up to 5K) and if suay suay the boat sink/hijack/terrorised and all my shipment go south, well, like I always say, life is tough.

5K insurance, company still say until they like so generous like that. Basket, my liquor tax cost nearly as much already. Who are they kidding… Lets just hope the shipment arrived in good time and condition. 3 years worth of stuffs… Oh well

Good Morning Sunshine…

梦与现实 by 巫启贤

终于点头不再挽留, 曾失去曾拥有
一路陪着我欢喜忧愁

快乐与痛苦都曾有, 只是到最后你身旁
不再有我

爱你始终不曾后悔
多少梦和现实一起面对
往事太美明天太灰
麻木伤悲都还有眼泪

爱你始终不曾后悔
为何两颗心都一起破碎
相爱太美相爱太灰
相爱总是痛彻人的心扉

IF I UNDERSTAND WHAT E=MC² IS, I’LL STILL BE A VIRGIN

27 August 2007
Over cast Sunday (30 Degree Celsius)
Early Morning @ 0012 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 别以为男人就不会哭 by 巫启贤
Mood: *Life is tough, too bad*

Of course, it is boring, how else can it be…. Especially when I have no inspiration to blog anything.

I waited for a whole fricking week, just to run out in the open instead of some pussy treadmill. I even slept at 12 last night, woke up just 5 hours later, just to run out in the open later and guess what… It rained on Sunday Morning. I should have slept in… HOW the fuck I know it will rain? At 5am when I woke up and decides not to sleep anymore, it is still dark, how to see the sky? Anyway, it rained for the longest time, all the way since long time ago. Oh well… at least the temperature is more bearable.

Yup, I should get a life… for the sake of sanity.

Had Popeye chicken on Tuesday, ate 5 in one go and before I knew it, I was sick as a pig for the longest time. Yup, Greedy Bird.

Wednesday had dinner at KQ place. Makan till nearly burst.

Thursday do OT and Friday, idle at last. Nothing much really happened after lunch; life is a constant struggle between pain and solace.

Saturday and Sunday had farewell lunches.

Finally finished my packing… A little sad and dread, well, that’s life. Looks like I have no choice but to re-adjust myself back to local life. I hate changes… 3 years ago was bad, now I have to relive the agony again. It should be easier this time… with everything seemingly familiar and stuffs.

I could do much more, but I didn’t. I wish I could have done better for my love life but I didn’t. Perhaps, perhaps perhaps. It is sad and a pity for my part, beside, people is cruel and the world still moves on without you. It’s a choice people make, Yup, like Mr Nyo says, in a nutshell, if they don’t like you, they DON’t like you, period.

Just in case this might be the last post I made in the US and for some reason, my flight does not reach Singapore on Sunday, I have to tell you; I missed you a lot, Bird. Alas, it is but a forgone issue,that's life.

In the End, when All things come in place, and the Universe unfold by itself, I would still be alive and lonely...

Au Revoir

And We Wept, to be so Alone…

在我眼里你永远最美, 连你一个微笑也都会让我醉

18 August 2007
Nice Saturday (33 Degree Celsius)
Afternoon @ 1220 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 别以为男人就不会哭 by 巫启贤
Mood: *Feed them to the Lions*

Last 2nd weekend before I go home. Nothing much to do actually, now doing my last burst of packing, Yup, my last burst last very long… Since like 2 months ago? That is correct.

Anyway, it is kind of sad moving away from my apartment. Gosh, I spent so many memorable times in it; YL, my family, Kwek’s, friends, colleagues… I am sure going to miss my apartment. Well, that’s life. Time and tide never waits for anyone. Move Along Boys & Girls… Time to do what a Bird got to do.

Yes, still kind of busy with work. My Successor has arrived early week and kind of settling him down nicely. I am getting exceedingly efficient being a local agent and other administrative stuffs. Yup, every fucker we encountered was amazed at the speed I got both my boss and replacement settled in. Yup, if only my performance bonus can be increased. Well, that’s life, it is ok.

What does life entails me back home? I shudder to think about it… I got no skills, no friends, no money, no sex life haha. Ok, sex (and everything) aside, it is going to be a hard climb to the working life again. It is tough and demanding here but I had fun. Now all I need is getting reacclimatised again. As in my other thesis, I argued that Humans are pretty resilient creatures, those who couldn’t adapt will be long gone (like suicide or other escape route) and those who could and excel, got all the spoils and die of heart attack (eventually). The moral of my thesis? Don’t stand outside the box… Very bad for health, both physical and psychologically.

Everyone needs a hug every now and then, it is like some rebooting mechanism you find in computing systems. It does wonders to your well being, just as a baby would react favourably to physical touch, we too are not at all different. I do miss you, at times (like now)… And I always wonder why. Perhaps in time to come, I will not be bothered by the question as much as the answers. Perhaps too, that I am destined to be alone. Not anyone’s fault or some divine jokes, but it is something I should, perhaps would but not in present could accept it.

在我眼里你永远最美, 连你一个微笑也都会让我醉

别以为男人就不会哭 by 巫启贤

我为你祝福虽然已经都说清楚
我们的感情不太聪明两个人爱得像傻子

多年来的坚持怎么会这样就结束
放下沉重的包袱只想找回自由的孤独

这一路我们走的好辛苦
每一步都值得我回顾
你的好我记得住就算我俩已形同陌路

不认输眼泪不能轻易付出
你给我的快乐你给我的满足
心甘情愿为你糊涂

不认输别以为男人就不会哭
你带走的快乐你带走的满足
咸咸的泪水夹著痛苦我不会在乎

SINCE OPTIMISM & PESSIMISM ARE BOTH DELUSION, WHY NOT STICK TO THE HAPPIER CHOICE?

15 August 2007
Nice Wednesday (30 Degree Celsius)
Night @ 2120 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 邻居的耳朵 by 柯以敏
Mood: *Drown them in Warm Beer*

Last night was a little PMS-ing, feel like drowning a lot of fuckers in warm beer and feed them to the lions. It is always like that one, when need Bird, can say until soooo nice (like when will return me the money plus this and add that) then when the money is over to them, silent all the way. Even after I send out a rather sarcastically laced email, still ignore me. Man, I need to tell my relatives to fuck themselves from now on. As if only they need the money. What is wrong with THEIR offspring’s? No money to lend it to your Dad? Wau liew, the more I say the more angry (see, if you put everything in Singlish, it makes more sense right?)

I slogged my guts out here just so to what? They are able to get the rewards for my hard work… Fucking whatever you call it… its ok, if they don’t return me the money its ok, really. But at least have the decency to reply me lah. Cheebye radio silent all the way. Nabei

Some mundane stuffs, think of this as a gap filler… you know, those in between week’s post.

1. Had lunch with the new boss, nothing much happened until they finished their food. He commented that I can eat a lot; over and above the normal food, I still ordered a slice of cake. No choice lah I told him, still growing…

2. My successor came, brought him around looking for stuffs. I think I am getting exceedingly efficient as a tour guide and local agent. Within one day, I got all his stuffs done up and everyone was smiling. I should get my performance bonus increased for these.

3. The new official car was in pretty bad shape. New boss drove around with it and came back with side door panels tarnished by black spray paint (those you find in road construction)… He say don’t know what happened, everyone say don’t know what happened… so how? HOW NOW? Its ok, really, it’s a collective thingy now… Fuck…

4. As if that is not enough, my colleague mounts a curb last morning and off goes the plastic wheel casing. Went back to look for it, no luck… Ya, Just my luck

5. Seriously, You can do whatever you want, as long as it wouldn’t inconvenient me.

Nothing much liao, told you it’s a gap filler… now for the LONG EXTENDED Song Lyrics

邻居的耳朵 by 柯以敏

多想只会失眠一晚, 撑过今晚也逃不过下一个循环
埋怨这世界发明了那么多药方却没有一样
治疗心被爱割的伤

不想又如何面对今晚, 空空心房只有寂寞回音荡漾
邻居的耳朵仿佛有意无意的藏在隔墙
看我有多坚强失去你以后我还能把悲伤撑多晚

四方灯火辉煌, 爱遥远得好让人沮丧
窃窃私语, 好奇的月亮
把枝头由绿染黄

如果能爱过不算转个身就能忘
那么全世界女人都和我一样
不怕邻居的耳朵一个比一个勇敢

如果有爱也不算划句点也坦然
就算全世界寂寞都背在身上
那怕邻居的耳朵听到我哭泣也不管

CHAOS KIND OF COUNTERBALANCE EACH OTHER, THEREBY CREATING AN EQUILIBRIUM™

13 August 2007
Damn Early Monday (23 Degree Celsius)
Morning @ 0520 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: Sometime Love Just Aint Enough by Bird
Mood: *Dude, where’s My car*

Yup, I trademark it again; think of this as my surest way to make money by suing freeloaders… sort of

Anyway, couldn’t sleep so might as well go online and try to pass some time. Saw this Jacky Wu’s variety shows over at Youtube. I only able to last a mere 1 min of it and had to reboot my brain after that. Man, that show (or rather all his shows) is fucking brainless. I know they are since a long time ago but I didn’t know it is also blatantly DUH-FUL and yup, fucking popular. I wonder why, where is the connection? Perhaps, people just want to put aside their brains for a while. Considering the stress of modern life (as if last time no stress like that), it is only natural…

The winning formula for the masses?

1. Sweet Young Things (catered to the Males)
2. Show Brainless Humor (as obvious, haha)
3. Blend them all into a seamless flow (for the Happy people)

How can these people ever enjoy such tasteless shows? I mean, how intellectual can it be haha. How can these people fit to procreate our next generation, just imagine; a world full of their kind… Hmm, on a second thought, it might not be all that bad. For a start, I could rule over them… muahahah.

Moving on, I spend my weekend figuring out Window Vista and my Office 2007. Interesting piece of invention, innovative and slightly more user friendly; that is, if you figure out everything in the first place, first. Oh well, install my super powerful anti-virus/fraud/firewall/everything-also-block ware from Norton. It is so powerful that it

1. Slow my system down to a snail pace
2. Block my favourite sites (hehe)
3. Almost single-handedly destroy my entire cache of Artistic pictures

But its ok, got a good deal for Norton. Yup, bird has nothing but lobangs, here and there, making friends, talking cock and before you know it, bingo, deal done. It is never too late to establish that friendship you know will last a long time. But hard lah, I am a very private person, perhaps you could say each of us has/have dual (or like me, multiple) personality, each for different occasion and by way of mathematical equation goes, it takes a genius (like yours truly) to make sure each personality are agreeable (or at least pretend) to each other, thereby making it a coherent whole. Not at all a bad thing unless you prefer to live in some nice little sanctuary for the rest of your life. See, I never fail to amaze even myself on the depth of cock I can muster.

Must be the lack of sleep...

Lucky the laptop came, just enough spare time for me to whack every juice and making damn sure it will tahan the journey home and stay that way for at least another 3 years. Oh yes, going home soon, how nice… Man, I dread going home… I sure going to miss here. Not at all a bad place (heck, home is also not that bad) but it is something I have to get it over and done with it.

Right, after my early retirement (haha), time to look for a job. But I was thinking I could do some travelling to Bali, Bangkok, Hong Kong and Taiwan. Hmm, unless I can find companionship, I guess the best bet is to suck thumb. Not that I have ton of cash too but I supposed it is enough to last for a while. Take this moratorium as a sabbatical break (I know, word from the bible… And I secular, but quite forgivable), take up some courses, talk to people and see how it goes.

Till Then, have a Fucking AWESOME-LOADED Day. Its fucking Monday, How NOT to be aroused…

COME TAKE THEM

10 August 2007
Bearable Friday (29 Degree Celsius)
Afternoon @ 1320 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 错过你错过爱 by 于台烟 & 张信哲
Mood: *Ya, keep Honking you Cheebye*

Singles, as demographics are doom to fail from birth, not withstanding quotations from Bibles (something like we need companionship to complete life thingy), we always seem to be at the losing end of the sticks. As suggested in My Thesis; in childhood, no one talk cock, play and bully hence develop unresolved dilemma WHICH morph into future adult problems such as, yes, bullying, talking cock etc. But Singles have something other “happily” attached/married don’t; we have high tolerance for Shit. Like this NY trip for example; I called, Plead, threaten and even willing to do things below my morals and still no one willing to bulge. Well, I’m joking on the morals part but you do know, right? Anyway, I wasn’t that keen to get anyone up too, cos that would mean accommodating their likings with my schedule. Though the companionship might help in the boredom part, but I wasn’t ready to sacrifice my freedom for these insignificant moments. You could say after years of companion-less and perhaps some maturity, singles tend NOT to see companionship as priority rather than themselves as exemplify by my accommodation (Lack of). Not at all a bad thing, and if you must, a classic case of survivability instinct that’s all; that is Singles will still live, with or without friends, beside, most are getting married *palm on face*… Oh well…

I survived the MOMA trip of course…

Woke up damn early in the morning, at 3am to be exact, took a shower, grab a power drink and drive 4 hours to New York. Then got stuck in the rush hour and only reach MOMA at 9.30am. Fuck, if I am not in my special car plate, I would have shoved them my finger, cheebye yellow cabs (New York official cabbies), whizzing in and out of my lane, then again, I will be terribly busy, so it’s a blessing. Of course, the Police patrol behind me has NOTHING to do with it… I’m serious, despite my status; I am a very law-abiding citizen of my temporary country.

I wanted to have a breakfast first then stroll into MOMA, I mean who on earth would visit MOMA, such HIGH CLASS museum… Boy was I wrong. There were already a good portion of Europeans and guess what, most are queuing already. So have to let the breakfast go and queue (typical kiasu Singaporean). Heard some speaking Italian, Spanish and of course French. One lady even “Merci” me when I held the door for her. Wau lau, which part of me say I am French? The rest can’t make up what the fuck they talking… mostly Scandinavian I think and mostly Gays. Yup, pretty obvious right. Which straight testosterone overdrive males would want (ever) to see Art works? Bird is a Bird, so you can discount him.

It was expensive, at US$20 per entry. Parking was slightly better, at US$24 per entry too (I was expecting US$40 haha). Toll set me back by another 40 and not to mention that HORRIBLE lunch. I thought lunch at this nice little open café at the top of MOMA would be an experience, yup, I was right on the experience part. In all, plus my shopping (ya, bird cannot resist buying interesting things), I spend about US250 in a day trip. Very stoned on my way back but hey, at least I fulfil my wish.

Speaking of the lunch, it cost me fricking US$40! And what did I have? Some COLD cucumber soup, some soba COLD noodles with equally COLD and raw duck, one special MOMA sundae. Wau liew, with that kind of money, I could have eaten at Ruth Chris or Morton (give and take a couple of 10s more, but you get the picture). No choice, the only saving grace is its view. Superb! And Manhattan, unlike DC, feels damn cooling. Because just a day earlier, it kena whack by tornado haha, so the whole island was pretty much drenched. Surprisingly, they got back to normal pretty fast, there are NO traces that the storm ever hit them. You have to admire them, these New Yorkers sure pretty resilience. Beside, they are one of the most beautiful people on earth.

MOMA pretty over hype. I mean it is big and held a couple of nice relics (modern arts and installation, what else as the name suggests). Well, let the pictures do the talk… it is worth more than my whining.

YA, KEEP HONKING, I AM RELOADING, YOU CHEEBYE

10 August 2007
Bearable Friday (29 Degree Celsius)
Afternoon @ 1220 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 错过你错过爱 by于台烟 & 张信哲
Mood: *Ya, keep Honking you Cheebye*


Morning, start engine and all ready to roar… Did a quick equipment checks; water, snacks and tibits…


Last check before driving out of garage… Everything ok, IPOD working perfectly and music is piped in nicely


View of Exterior of Apartment driveway... Not bad lah, still got some lights


First Gas Stop… Basket, my Colleague’s Toyota Camry drinks petrol like water also… But it is a much better drive and with a full tank, I can go up to 400 miles.


Damn, it is still so dark… And unlike back home, people here really sleep at night, instead of seeing insomnia cars here and there


After 2 hours, there is light…


Many Many Toll charges, as if the roads are SO well maintenance like that… DUH


Finally saw some sunlight in Delaware Turnpike… haha. This picture doesn’t do the Sun much justice; it is really a big round Red-looking Ball in front of me.


Stop for Pee and smoke break… My countless sticks in so many hours


Ulu Gas Station… those you find in some cheapskate C Grade horror film type.


On my way up the bridge to Holland Tunnel… Can see the Jam coming in both directions.


Morning Sun so bright… It’s a Miracle; I can take steady pictures while driving at 80km/hr


Manhattan Skyline (the tallest spike is Empire State Building)


Some Large scale installation at work… I drive 9 hours in all just to see these scribbles.


Reach MOMA, had lunch at this scenic spot… Yup, the expensive and horrible lunch.


Even water also so nicely display… No wonder cost me a bomb… Actually I was there really to see this Richard Serra’s Mega Installation. Yup, don’t ask me how and why I know this chap and his work, I just know… It is one of those books I had read when I am pretty bored. And the way it goes, I must be really BORED lately...


Some Brochures and book I bought…


The View is fantastic, and you can clearly see Serra’s installation.


Nice Looking & Expensive MOMA Sundae but tastes like cough Syrup.


New York Manhattan Times Square…


Opposite View… See so many people also sian


Yup, more signages


MORE MORE MORE…


Nice shade I chose to rest haha

Finally 5 hours of walking and sightseeing, rest my feet and have another oxygen break.

Drive home, leaving Lincoln tunnel… Pretty stoned at this time and still have to drive another 4 hours back...

KEEP HONKING, I’M RELOADING

8 August 2007
HOT & HUMID Wednesday (40 Degree Celsius)
Evening @ 1720 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 错过你错过爱 by于台烟 & 张信哲
Mood: *Ya, keeping Honking you Cheebye*

Cow, kena DC heat advisory for a week. Everyday temperature goes upwards of 36 – 40 Degree. I even dread going out for a smoke and kena a gush of hot air rushing towards me, it is too hot! And beside, people tend to do really stupid things when things get fucking hot. Like this for example;

Some black chap is honking inhumanly at a poor old lady whose only fault is driving too slowly. I don’t have the heart to tell the black chap that her bumper sticker reads

KEEPING HONKING, I AM RELOADING…

Wonder if he ever makes it to his destination…

Anyway, I aim to finish whatever I am supposed to do and have a long extended weekend (Thursday to Sunday). Yup, yours truly suddenly has the urge to go to New York for a daytrip sightseeing. I have yet to visit the renowned Museum of Modern Arts (MOMA) since I got here, despite visiting Manhattan so many times, so baring any last minute fuckup, it will be DONE tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Oh on that note, lately I met (sort of) one lady that resembles YL a lot (and I mean A LOT). That’s cool, so far, haven’t come across such resemblance in friends (I just got to know her, so I don’t think she ever consider me as friends yet… haha). Of course it is fun knowing new people, especially if they are pretty and sweet (haha). Whatever…

Was thinking about my relationships (lack of) in meeting today. No choice, Meeting too boring, everyone looks so dead and I kept thinking of that new found friend haha. In a sad note, somehow I missed a couple of chances in life and yet trashed opportunities with others as well. So I guess it seems destined that I should serve the rest of my punishment alone. Not that it seems fair but this is something I deserved. Oh well…

I hope life treats you kind; you don’t have to carry the burden alone… I am here, with you always. I am just a breath away to catch your sigh and by your side, lest you should need a resting shoulder. But you will never know, do you? Here I am, waiting and missing you for eternity.

I miss you; I really do, if only you have a name.

错过你错过爱 by于台烟 & 张信哲

(男): 别怕我要探你的心, 别逃避我的眼睛, 倾听我话语
心中一阵阵翻腾的勇气, 不曾是你的过去
但愿在明天能拥有

(女) 别问我那深埋的心, 别提醒我再想起, 免得我伤心
心中一次次努力的压抑, 伤痕累累的自己
怎能相信仍有被爱的权力

(男) 错过你错过爱, 你和我为何终不能相爱
(女) 禁不住的挣扎, 想了又想然而真的太难
(男) 错过你错过爱, 不相信我们永不能相爱
(女) 这说不出的遗憾, 是我宿命的孤单

(合) 是去爱你或被爱, 是否又一次错过

WHICH PART OF E=MC² DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND? ™

6 August 2007
HOT & HUMID Monday (40 Degree Celsius)
Night @ 2200 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 想着你的感觉 by 巫启贤
Mood: *Duh*

Still busy running around, had a quick McDonald lunch and some time in between chaos for cigarette breaks. Life is ok, like I always said nothing too fanciful, nothing too strenuous for the heart. Had a go at Iphone despite my busy schedule today haha. Not bad actually, the screen is solid; the Man-Machine-Interface is superb. The technologies are everywhere but this essentially a first for integration in a single gadget. Well, the only complain is a little big to and on the pocket literally.

Moving on, I haven’t had the time since like ages to keep my blog updated. Yup, life is a tough going, but its ok, I am looking forward to my 2 days break on Wednesday (off day) and Thursday (National Day). Thought of doing a quick one day drive to New York’s MOMA. Haven’t been there before despite going to Manhattan so many times. This time, I would like to do a slow one day sightseeing thingy but then again, I actually have to confront my dilemma since I arrived here 3 years back; I will be alone. How fun can alone be? Hmm…

Besides, I am driving a rental car, which at last count drink petrol like water like that (notice my singlish? Near perfection). Of all rental cars available, I have to settle for a Ford Taurus, an American Muscle, ya, those muscles so fuel NOT efficient. How to tahan going up to New York? Perhaps of course, if oil prices are not near all time high (or has it been breached? These few days no follow news lah), I wouldn’t think twice. Think of this as a double-edged sword. We reconsider our options and the rest of the oil wankers get off as much as they can, while it last that is. Fucking fucktards, wait till someone invent a renewable, clean and cheap form of fuel, then they die cock standing (literally again). So how? Now, I can only suck my own thumb. But as the saying goes, patience is a virtue, we can wait, regardless of time, we can wait. One day, it will be done. You can trust me on this…

Oh well, why am I on rental car? Cos my beautiful BMW is in the workshop (remember some old lady backed onto my side door?). Yup, got the insurance claims and now, working round the clock to have it repaired in time for my departure. Oh yes, talking about time limitation, Toshiba just send me a note saying my new ordered laptop will be delayed till end of the month (I ordered it 1 month ago). Die lah, why must they complicate the already troubled mind. Cheebye… Always get these type of package.

想着你的感觉 by 巫启贤

每一次我走近总是那么悄悄的
不敢使你讶异让你发觉自己是幻影

每一次我唤你总是那么细细的
不让寂寞听到嘲笑我用温柔的声音

每一次我离去总是那么轻轻的
不敢将你惊醒让你发觉醒在我梦里
每一次我等你总是那么静静的
不让光阴知道安慰我用无言的期许

一个一个想你的日子砌成一幢孤单的房子
我在上楼下楼开门关门翻着抽屉寻着你名字
一个一个想你的日子从你回眸而去那天开始
我的日记写成诗诗的背后寻到你名字

想着你的感觉有如雨的缠绵
淋湿我的岁月而我却依然不知不觉
想着你的感觉有如风的缱绻
吹乱我的日夜吹也吹不走你的容颜

I’M FUCKED

4 August 2007
HOT & HUMID Saturday (31 Degree Celsius)
Night @ 2300 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 别再问我爱你有多深 by 巫启贤
Mood: *Duh*

After a good discussion, the result; the Job is not really suitable for me after all. I’m a little disappointed, because I was hoping I could ace it. I did, but it is not so much on qualification, experience and other intellectual stuffs; more of having the right fit, simple as that. Well, at least I tried and in the process got quite a good feedback too. That is something I could use in time to come.

On that fact, I think I hid my disappointment pretty well, still can crack a couple of jokes and carry on a decent conversation especially after the feedback. Yup, that’s bird, always hiding behind a mask and will only cow peh over the blog. Then what you want me to do? Cry on the spot? Duh…

Maybe I am too idealistic for certain job fit, well, I am a dreamer and an idealist, that is a fact so perhaps, it is a blessing that I was chopped in the first round. Oh well, I am disappointed, really. Back to reality, life is not always smooth sailing, there bound to have some waves, storms and stuffs.

Well bird, that’s life.

But I always believe that opportunity favours the prepared mind, so I shan’t relent on my knowledge updating. With a sound base on issues close to me, coupled with a prepared mind, I supposed all I need now is a little luck… But knowing bird’s state of luckiness, I shan’t count on it. Beside, as I mentioned earlier, I read because no one talks to me… Oh well… fuck, even my joke sounded lame.

I guess I could use the free time for some realignment and adjustment into Singapore again.

别再问我爱你有多深 by 巫启贤

别再问我爱你有多深我已无力面对你一问再问
是否我的感情如此不堪让你等我却为你苦苦的生存

别再问我爱你有多真我已无力证明心有多诚恳
是否我的感情如此不堪让你等我却为你苦苦的生存

明天的问题让我来承担多少人的决定比我们更难
只要你的心坚定不移不怕不逃避就让不安的心随风去

别再问我爱你有多深我的深情和你一样的认真
是否我的回忆如此不堪让你等我愿为你苦苦的生存

STAR* STAR* POKE STAR* STAR*, STAR* STAR* COW PEH PAIN

4 August 2007
HOT & HUMID Saturday (39 Degree Celsius)
Morning @ 1000 (Washington DC Time)
Listen: 爱似狂潮 by 苏永康
Mood: *Duh*

It was a mad rush to wait and wait to rush. Typical of any operations haha.

Anyway, I have had a long week, this and that, that and this, it has been ongoing for the entire week. Never mind, I had great fun catching up with friends, both old and new last night. Basket always got these type of packages one, whenever I am about to leave for elsewhere, suddenly, I am surrounded by goodies. Oh well, that’s life.

But still no time and no inspiration for any entry. This is like a gap filler. So enjoy my fellow readers… whoever you are… haha

I’m glad I did live once, so far not that significance but it will be done, give it time.

Oh yes, just re-discover that actually I can sing Jeff Chang’s Song pretty well haha…

爱似狂潮 by 苏永康

一个人逃不开寂寥, 两颗心反覆煎熬
渴望能与你相守到老, 谁都挡不了

就算是那样的拥抱, 发现你还是想逃
悲伤快乐紧紧的缠绕, 却不能不要

熄了灯我睡不着, 回忆还任性喧闹
任情绪慢慢往下掉, 有多苦你不明了

爱似狂潮, 爱似浪涛
我不要苏醒的太早
宁愿身陷泥沼, 只求多爱你一秒

爱似狂潮, 爱似浪涛
不计较你给的多少
不在乎梦变薄, 只记得你的好

Oh yes, this is the "Don't know how big her mug is" title earlier... Not you know... some other assets...