I TRIED BUT STILL I FAILED
5 October 2007
Nice Friday (32 Degree Celsius)
Evening @ 1930 (Singapore time)
Listen: 难以捉摸你的心 by 张洪量
Mood: *South Pole*
I have expectation that is why I am disappointed. This is the nature of life; expectation breeds deeper disappointment. I don’t want a relapse of T.A again, different lifestyle and still trying so hard to make it work. I was a great guy then and yet, I failed miserably… After 8 years, I am not the least nice now, so what are the odds? I cannot afford another failed episode; I am not getting young anymore… nor did I want to give it up… What can I do? Try Die cock standing?
I could drown myself in sorrow, burn my lungs in grief, trying to forget everything… Just like the good old days. I missed getting drunk and just collapse in angst. What else can I do to make sense of my surrounding, so I just give up; Life is too tough to move on, so let me live my loneliness in sorrow…
I just can’t seem to find the root of my problem? I have lived so long, so much so that nothing of these matter anymore. I just want to live the remaining of my life in peace. My only comfort is these little memories to keep me going through the long cold nights.
Where are you, my beloved… I have search in vain for you, 30 long years and it still not meant to be. How cruel life has dealt me. I long for comfort, in our arms, for love, in our smile, for happiness, in our winkle, but alas, such things are not meant to be and that, regretfully is the story of life, my life.
I missed you then, I missed you now, if only I knew who you are
难以捉摸你的心 by 张洪量
离开不离开你常常问我自己, 离开会伤心留下我怨你
啊 难以决定
Nice Friday (32 Degree Celsius)
Evening @ 1930 (Singapore time)
Listen: 难以捉摸你的心 by 张洪量
Mood: *South Pole*
I have expectation that is why I am disappointed. This is the nature of life; expectation breeds deeper disappointment. I don’t want a relapse of T.A again, different lifestyle and still trying so hard to make it work. I was a great guy then and yet, I failed miserably… After 8 years, I am not the least nice now, so what are the odds? I cannot afford another failed episode; I am not getting young anymore… nor did I want to give it up… What can I do? Try Die cock standing?
I could drown myself in sorrow, burn my lungs in grief, trying to forget everything… Just like the good old days. I missed getting drunk and just collapse in angst. What else can I do to make sense of my surrounding, so I just give up; Life is too tough to move on, so let me live my loneliness in sorrow…
I just can’t seem to find the root of my problem? I have lived so long, so much so that nothing of these matter anymore. I just want to live the remaining of my life in peace. My only comfort is these little memories to keep me going through the long cold nights.
Where are you, my beloved… I have search in vain for you, 30 long years and it still not meant to be. How cruel life has dealt me. I long for comfort, in our arms, for love, in our smile, for happiness, in our winkle, but alas, such things are not meant to be and that, regretfully is the story of life, my life.
I missed you then, I missed you now, if only I knew who you are
难以捉摸你的心 by 张洪量
离开不离开你常常问我自己, 离开会伤心留下我怨你
啊 难以决定
想要改变自己看透这些事情, 奈何我们是红男和绿女
只能随著爱恨来去
是谁翻云覆雨了以後, 让我受尽相思的苦痛
却告诉我这一切全是错全是错
难以捉摸你的心, 在我身上是否用过感情
难道我不够好做错了什麼, 你这样折磨我
难以捉摸你的心, 莫非心中已有别的感情
你可以抛弃我何必管我痛
这爱又算什麼
难道我不够好做错了什麼, 你这样折磨我
难以捉摸你的心, 莫非心中已有别的感情
你可以抛弃我何必管我痛
这爱又算什麼
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