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29 April 2010

Hot & the Rainy Thursday (30 Degree Celsius)

Night @ 2100 (Singapore Time)

Listen: 爱要怎么说出口 by 赵传

Mood: *Ok lor”

Been a week since Claire’s arrival. Boy, did we do a lot. We changed the diapers, fed her well, shower time, pat pat her… Yup, the works. Next off to pediatrician for checks, Gynecologist checks and registering for Infant Care etc etc… Sometime, in between all the hustle and bustle of handling my little princess, there is no better joy and serenity in life just watching her falling asleep in her little cot. The peacefulness of her sleep just makes Daddy & Mummy hard work seems all worthwhile.

Our little princess is feeding well, growing well and behaving not too badly (For now). Still, I must constantly remind Mummy’s relatives not to pat/hug/carry her at her slightest provocation/tantrum. Lest she got used to the attention and becometh a habit, then how? Daddy die lor, must carry and hug her every now and then. Still, seeing her screaming her lungs out (for whatever reasons) does pain us… So looks like we are in for a nice run… Whatever that means…

To make life more interesting, during her first checkup at Thomson, apparently she needed some tests that require some of her blood; the nurse prick her little sole. Then lo & behold, Mummy went crying together with her. It is like both felt the pain of the needle… So daddy how? Daddy pat pat both of them and had a family hug, awwww….

Been popping over to Mummy’s in-law house everyday without fail, except for Saturday night where daddy was down with a slight cold. But then, I brought Grandma over to see Claire in the afternoon so technically still got to see Claire.

Our little Princess has been quite cute, save for some tiny winy attitude so far. Just like Daddy, seriously; she has no patience, have this “Gor Tak” little face, breathing ever so hard, big round eyes, fleshy ears and nose. Haha, got prosperous look. Oh well, hopefully she will turn out smart, kind and gentle. What else can we hope for…

Anything else beside those? Well, I had an episode of PMSing yesterday. I can’t really put a word to it, but I have been dragging my feet to work lately. There’s no joy and motivation for me to continue working and working hard. Especially so after Claire’s arrived. After so many years of education, I am reduce to being a buggy boy, an errant boy and worst (or slightly better, depending on perspective), a Chief Clerk. I needed more than these, I deserve more than these… I am neither lazy, nor stupid. I am fucking smart, hardworking and resourceful; Damn it, I need more challenges, more stimulation, more Money! I am so much better than the entire club’s fuckers, I deserve more than these!!

But then somewhere along the way, shit happens and now I’m reduced to such a state. Sometime, I should be thankful with whatever God’s bring forth. Ignorance is Bliss… Stupidity is Bliss-er.

For the happy people in life, rock on!

爱要怎么说出口 by 赵传

我痛啊...

叫我怎么能不难过, 你劝我灭了心中的火, 我还能够怎么说, 怎么说都是错

你对我说, 离开就会解脱, 试着自已去生活,

试着找寻自我, 别再为爱蹉跎

只是爱要怎么说出口, 我的心里好难受, 如果能将你拥有, 我会忍住不让眼泪流

第一次握你的手, 指尖传来你的温柔

每一次深情眼光的背后, 谁知道会有多少愁多少愁

如果要我, 把心对你解剖, 只要改变这结果

我会说我愿意做, 我受够了寂寞