SUCH IS LIFE

12 April 2010

Hot & Humid Monday (33 Degree Celsius)

Early Night @ 1950 (Singapore Time)

Listen: 纪念 by Tanya Chua

Mood: *Sian, Sibei Sian”

Such is life. Yup, today got “last-min-then-tell-me” information and I had to do everything in my power to get it out. Then again, I’m a great actor/information processor; nothing will make me look damn bad in front of bosses. I digest the information as it comes and figure out what all the rackets and hell is/are all about. Damn, I’m brilliant! Always try to keep information from me, right? Never expect me to pick it up along the way and actually understanding it right? Nabei, KNNFB But that’s life and at least I am doing something remotely productive, even if I hated the idea of last minute stuffs. Oh well…

Went to hose my car down, too dirty and besides, I spotted a little spider crawling around. Double damn. After that, pick up wife, reach home, gave a stupid “I-don’t-want-to-jog-cos-looks-like-rain- coming” excuse and bingo… I ate dinner. Maybe, just maybe, I might go for a jog later but we’ll see. For your information, there is no rain, NOT even a drop of condensation, if you must.

Oh dear, wife is vomiting now, think the little princess is churning around. Haiz, little Claire Claire misbehaved again… what to do… Hang in there baby and Wife. Wish I could be of some help but alas, its better to keep my mouth shut with the least trouble as possible, in case wife agonized over my everything and anything. Such is life

Just got her some warm water to drink. Sometime, I wonder, it is these little gestures that I would never dream of doing. If I wanted anything in the past, I will get it myself and not rely on other’s generosity or kindness/bo-pian-ness. But now, my life priorities have changed. It’s Wife, Daughter, Mom, then me. Gosh, how low in the food chain have I demoted to.

Gosh, I am about to be a father, a Dad. When I come home next time, someone will rush towards me, grab me by the leg and scream out “Daddy! Daddy!” Gosh, I am gona be a dad! Gee, the adrenaline drive makes my head a little light… Steady man, Steady… Everything will be just OK.

Claire, be nice. Treat other’s with the same kindness as your Mom & Dad would have. Be sincere and above all, love yourself. That’s all I am asking… Loving you ever so much, little Claire.

纪念 by Tanya Chua

想念变成一条线, 在时间里面蔓延

长得可以把世界切成了两个面

他在春天那一边, 你的秋天刚落叶, 刚落叶

如果从此不见面, 让你凭记忆想念

本来这段爱情可以记得很完美

他的样子已改变, 有新伴侣的气味, 的气味

那一瞬间你终于发现, 那曾深爱过的人(嗯)~~

早在告别的那天, 已消失在这个世界

也许那一次见面, 是生命给你机会

了解爱只是人所渴望的投射面

只是渴望会改变, 他的爱已经不见已不见

那一瞬间你终于发现, 心中的爱和思念

都只是属于自己曾经拥有过

曾经拥有过曾经拥有过的纪念