ABCDEFG: A BOY CAN DO EVERYTHING FOR GIRL.
12 February 2008
Tuesday (31 Degree Celsius)
Night @ 2040 (Singapore Time)
Listen: 他没有错 by 范玮琪
Mood: *Cow & Horsie… strolling in park”
Oh yes, this is my bird day week as quoted. For some reasons, my birth date on both the Lunar and Gregorian Calendar falls on the same day. I think its like 2nd time in my life time. Nothing to cheer about… It is just another day; a milestone if you like. Gosh, I have gone through one decade of 20s in a flash… In a nutshell;
Went to work at 22, tuang 3 years in Singapore, left for US and tuang another 3 years… return to Singapore at the ripe old age of 29. There you have it, a short and totally surmised format for my decade of alive-ness.
CY was telling me last night not to like pain and sorrow too much… Besides making me feeling alive, it also gave me the much needed emo entries in blog. What could be a better way to spend my life? But then, life is never about me and me alone, if that’s the case, it is so much easier on the heart. There are tons of stakeholders around, all trying to influence your choice of things. Ain’t easy, but that’s life. Need examples? Look at my kid Brother wedding preparation; you will get the drift… Everyone wants their constantly changing input fulfilled. Tough luck…
Moving along, So Bird, what are the plans for the next decade before you hit the big 4… I planned to get a BMW 3 Series (5 & 7 too big for me haha) in 4 years time, an apartment in 5 years time and by 36, I should be paying through my nose with all the loans and debts accumulated for at least another 15 years (till like 50), all for the sake of appearances. Nice…
One more day of 20s life… One more day… One less day on earth…
I could say; I could do this better, I would do that nicer, I should be doing those instead of if, may, whatever… But then, in the end, it wouldn’t matter. Why should it be? What done could not be undone and I think there is a divine purpose for all this hardship and sorrow. All is not lost, my fellow brethrens and sisters, there is a second chance to make things right. Not always though. It is like an exception, rather than norm. But have faith and be strong… cos whatever that doesn’t kill you will make you stronger, provided of course you don’t die from it…
I am not depressed now per se, just a shade of blue. Besides, I will be working late these couple of days till Friday and I guess there shall be no dinner appointments to be planned for. Oh Supreme commander is back for a short working trip, hope to meet up with him. Hasn’t seen him for ages.
Then again, to what purpose… I should be happy, but I am not. It was grown into me already. I am depressive, what could be a better gift than this? I am enjoying it… Just stay out of my way meanwhile… Its better for all of us, really…
Happy Bird Day, May you find strength in his Blessing and be comforted in his Grace.
Oh, One more thing, please don’t kill yourself too… Remember, this world is never about you alone. Sometime I marvel at my own motivational talks. Sometime though, the pain is just too unbearable. I need you, can’t you see?
Tuesday (31 Degree Celsius)
Night @ 2040 (Singapore Time)
Listen: 他没有错 by 范玮琪
Mood: *Cow & Horsie… strolling in park”
Oh yes, this is my bird day week as quoted. For some reasons, my birth date on both the Lunar and Gregorian Calendar falls on the same day. I think its like 2nd time in my life time. Nothing to cheer about… It is just another day; a milestone if you like. Gosh, I have gone through one decade of 20s in a flash… In a nutshell;
Went to work at 22, tuang 3 years in Singapore, left for US and tuang another 3 years… return to Singapore at the ripe old age of 29. There you have it, a short and totally surmised format for my decade of alive-ness.
CY was telling me last night not to like pain and sorrow too much… Besides making me feeling alive, it also gave me the much needed emo entries in blog. What could be a better way to spend my life? But then, life is never about me and me alone, if that’s the case, it is so much easier on the heart. There are tons of stakeholders around, all trying to influence your choice of things. Ain’t easy, but that’s life. Need examples? Look at my kid Brother wedding preparation; you will get the drift… Everyone wants their constantly changing input fulfilled. Tough luck…
Moving along, So Bird, what are the plans for the next decade before you hit the big 4… I planned to get a BMW 3 Series (5 & 7 too big for me haha) in 4 years time, an apartment in 5 years time and by 36, I should be paying through my nose with all the loans and debts accumulated for at least another 15 years (till like 50), all for the sake of appearances. Nice…
One more day of 20s life… One more day… One less day on earth…
I could say; I could do this better, I would do that nicer, I should be doing those instead of if, may, whatever… But then, in the end, it wouldn’t matter. Why should it be? What done could not be undone and I think there is a divine purpose for all this hardship and sorrow. All is not lost, my fellow brethrens and sisters, there is a second chance to make things right. Not always though. It is like an exception, rather than norm. But have faith and be strong… cos whatever that doesn’t kill you will make you stronger, provided of course you don’t die from it…
I am not depressed now per se, just a shade of blue. Besides, I will be working late these couple of days till Friday and I guess there shall be no dinner appointments to be planned for. Oh Supreme commander is back for a short working trip, hope to meet up with him. Hasn’t seen him for ages.
Then again, to what purpose… I should be happy, but I am not. It was grown into me already. I am depressive, what could be a better gift than this? I am enjoying it… Just stay out of my way meanwhile… Its better for all of us, really…
Happy Bird Day, May you find strength in his Blessing and be comforted in his Grace.
Oh, One more thing, please don’t kill yourself too… Remember, this world is never about you alone. Sometime I marvel at my own motivational talks. Sometime though, the pain is just too unbearable. I need you, can’t you see?
只剩下我, 只剩下你, 还继续苦守寒窯, 一等十八年… If only you knew the depth of my pain…微笑中留下的眼泪, 一定很美…
I miss you… If I only would know who you are...
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