Tuesday, April 6, 2010

DON’T LISTEN TO BEAR, HAVE YOU EVER SEEN A RICH BEAR?

6 April 2010
Sunny Tuesday (33 Degree Celsius)
Late Night @ 2150 (Singapore Time)
Listen: 空白格 by Tanya Chua
Mood: *Yawn”

Today was fucking boring. To say its B.O.R.I.N.G is an understatement… I practically went for toilet break like every ½ hour… And I got no one to chat with… DAMN… I could, in theory, chat with my clerks but they already so short of time for departments’ works (unlike their lobo boss) and by talking to them, they are obliged (for obvious reason) to entertain me… It is already sucky trying to make their life difficult by implementing controls and obstacles to eating snakes, now they have to waste time entertaining me? I joke I joke… I shall eat snake alone then… What to do…

And if things can’t go any south-er, my fucking department secretary called me at 1.45pm and so kanchiongly say its Dr Kieran’s Birthday (errm, ok), quickly come to meeting room to celebrate (right…)… Now, quickly come now… (oh, like I Care…) haha, you seriously think I care and really wana go? So I did what I do best, I leisurely reply one email, slowly drag my big fat ass out of the cubicle and sluggishly shashay into the meeting room, just in time for group photo… Ya, like I fucking care… too bad, I go because I was bored, seriously… Why you think I bother to go if I am busy? Even though it is like only 30secs worth of walk, not even burning 10 calories, come and think of it.

Annual Increment sucks and I did not get my promotion, thereby confirming my theory that not only you have to suck up to big bosses but also need to have reciprocity. Meaning to say if you got the right connection and the right audience, even if you scale one molehill, people will applause. If you got nothing, don’t say molehill, even 10 Everest also people yawn in their seat. Oh well, life is as such and we can only endure and carry on. That paycheck, no matter how bad and pathetic, do come in handy every month end. No really…

The only saving grace? My boss is on 2 days off. Boy, did that helps a lot. No boss around, the time seems easier to pass. What else I do? Think I’m down with a slight (for now) cold. Damn, it sucks being sick and can’t do my training. Oh yes, did I tell you I am training hard (for my age), don’t know for what purpose but guess I wanted to feel the muscle soreness and pain of my earlier years. I hope I can really tahan and endure till next ICT and make it part of my lifestyle. I gave up smoking for Claire Claire and Mommy and have had to find things to fill up the void, BINGO, what can be better than exercise and training to have the nicest taut body? Maybe not taut lah, but fit. I too, missed the sensation of pain and agony, yes, those feelings that accompanied me through the long lonely nights of my younger years. I joke I joke. No, seriously, as much as I long for the fitness of my younger years, guess whatever it is, I have to slowly find it back and be contented with whatever I can achieve.

On that note (The contentment, not fitness), Seow was telling us after the yearly disappointment; be contented lah. Somehow I wish I could agree with him but alas, we are but mere mortal, blinded by greed and lust for power & money, and more money & power… Sigh… we are doomed to fail… to bring my point succinctly across, let’s put it this way; if its not for LOSERS running amok amongst us, how you differentiate me from them? Seriously, it’s like Pigs, doing nothing but eat, sleep, fuck and then eat somemore, sleep somemore and (yes) fuck, but I digress.

Oh yes, little Claire Claire, remember to eat up and grow big big, ok? Wait mummy worry about you being a small small little princess during birth. Don’t worry the already worried mind of Mummy ok? Just like Daddy, everything also eat, anywhere also can sleep and anything also ok (maybe not anything but close). Be strong, Beautiful and smart like Daddy & Mummy… Ignore our little flaws along the way, ok?

Yes, We love you ever so much.

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